Retrospective is the act of the reflecting on events that have already taken place in your life. Hind-sight is thinking of alternative actions for those past events. Always in life you can’t help but wonder what you could have done differently and how the changes would affect your life today. There are so many things in life that I’d like to change but sometimes being risk aversive is the safest course of action. But where’s the excitement in that? Where’s the thrill? Where’s the need to learn to ride a motorcycle, work out and grow out your hair? Why is it that in hind-sight my decisions are on polar extremes?

This blog no longer serves as the pulpit for proclamations of my social and personal actions, but rather of the inner battle that coexists inside of me, entrenched with the necessity of figuring out “why?”. I guess it will take some time before I’m ready to mend what was never broken, to align my thoughts with my goals and actions.

Have you ever noticed how many things in your life are repetitive? From your daily routine, to the food you eat, to the people you meet? There’s always a sense of repetition. How do we break free of it’s hold? How do you we change the path we’re following and make it different, make it unique?

The “Shoes” shot

I know it’s a bit out there to comment on this, but it needs to be said. You must know what I’m talking about because it’s hard to flip through a girl’s photo album without running into one of these. You’ve seen it and I’ve seen it one too many  - a photo of the shoes of five girls, all sticking their foot out to form a circle. I honestly can not think of any practical use for this photograph. People take photos to remember faces and places and events… but shoes? Honestly? Shoes? These photos need to be banned or at least kept to yourself because I’m sure I’m not the only one who finds this photo a waste of ink and space :D

I hate to say this but with all honesty, from a consumer’s point of view, CIBC is the land of incompetents! I requested to open one RRSP account over the internet, and apparently it doesn’t get processed right away. I call in their contact centre the next day and find out that the account isn’t even in their pipeline - they have no record of the online application at all. I tell the representative that I’ll just go to a branch and open the RRSP there instead. So the same day, I decide to go to the branch closest to me, and tell the guy that I’ve already applied online and nothing is there, and that I even called in and they said they had no record of it. I told him this because I didn’t want to do yet ANOTHER application. He says nothing has been done and so I tell him to go right ahead. Later that night, I go online, and now I have three RRSP accounts while yesterday I had zero. Great.

As a personal request, please don’t take any of the aforementioned out of context.

Just wanted to wish everyone an Eid Mubarak!

Hopefully your day was better than mine :-)

So maybe it’s because it’s 3am or maybe it’s because I’m listening to Back in the Day by Erykah Badu, but for some reason I feel like things could be a whole lot better than what they are right now. My pretty decent day consisted of a closing hour rush at work, followed by spending some expediated time with my parents. That was then, and this is now. Now for some reason I’ve been called named, given cause to do something which I never do, especially as quick as you can snap your fingers. Perhaps it really is the fact that no one ever thinks straight late at night, coupled with the fact that you’re chatting, which should cause the official to toss in a yellow flag as soon as humanly possible. I wish I could divulge more information, but my eyes are literally half closed. Maybe if a soul shows interest, I’ll continue it tomorrow. Otherwise, catch you on the flip side. And an early Eid Mubarak!

Thori si jaan aati hain is zindagi mein,
Laykin mushkil tapak parti hain is badd naseeb pe.

Kyun hain aisi zindagi hamari?
Na mein hun, na tum ho, bas hain in do dillo ki judai.

So you’ve all seen my photos of my visit to India, so I thought I’d post some of the photos I took with some new suits I purchased while I was there. Yes, they are quite narcissistic.

So yesterday was quite the day. I remember watching this episode of Scrubs from a while back and it wasn’t really the acting or emotions that I took away from that episode, but rather the underlying story where the lead character always balances out at the end of the day. That was my day yesterday.

The day started off with a friend of mine informing me of some pretty depressing news. I won’t go into details, but it was pretty devasting and it had me down the whole day. Luckily this friend of mine was able to show up to my work, and although I was pretty bummed out, there was just a slight, ever so miniscule light at the end of the tunnel.

Next was an interview that I had with one of the big five banks. My initial interview with HR had gone well, but this one was just the opposite. Although I was prepared for most of the questions and I had stories to tell regarding each ones, I felt that my stories failed to impress the interviewer. All in all, I have a feeling it didn’t go too well. At the end, she did mention that she will pass on my information to a couple managers and I should hopefully hear back from them shorty. So fingers crossed on that.

Third on the agenda was that, at my workplace, managers rarely come to visit, and yesterday certainly wasn’t one of those days. It’s always a surprise when they show up, and yesterday was just that - a surprise visit. However, as it was quite the pleasant visit, I felt good at the end of it. *Flashback to the movie Casablanca: Louis, I think this is the beginning of a beautiful friendship*.

I guess that about sums up my day for yesterday. Three big events, all that either started off really low but somehow, with a little bit of optimism in my eyes and a glass that’s half full, I’m only going to hope for the best.

Today is my first post after several months of inactivity. The past couple months have been quite the rollercoaster ride in pretty much all aspects. On the job front, Alhamdullilah, I’ve had a handful of job interviews, but have yet to secure adequate employment. I was given an offer, but the location of the post (in the middle of nowhere) and the length of my contract (two years) was not something which I felt would be in my best interests. So the job front has not been all too pleasant. On the friends front, I haven’t been able to meet up with a lot of my friends from Schulich since our last gettogether sometime in May/June. The only one since then has been this past Friday where we went over to a friend’s place for Iftar. That’s the downside, the upside is that I’ve been in constant contact with two close highschool friends, maintaining the type of friendship which you can grow old with. Family has also had its ups and its downs. With all this free time since university has ended, I’ve gotten much closer to my family, but have had my only sibling leave the country to further her education. So all in all, from what you’ve read, I’ve always ended up at zero. I might have gained something, but lost an equally important part of my life at the same time.

Today was no better. It’s only 11am as I write this, and I don’t start work for another hour, but the day has not met me with open arms. I started off the day with receiving a morbid email from a friend of mine who had shown discomfort in our previous conversation and had mentioned cutting our friendship short - first time that’s ever happened, so I don’t know what to expect. The second was a phone interview I had shortly afterwards. It might have been the shock from the first disappoinment of the day, but the interview I felt was terrible. It’s shear length - one hour - involving several rare behavioural questions definetly caught me off my guard. The fact that it persisted for so long had me on the edge. The fact that my mouth was dry did not offer me any support.

I can only hope this day does not get any worse than it already is.